Love Keeps No Record of Being Wronged
It would begin with me sharing something I had read, and end with me screaming that I could not have said that because I had never thought that! By the time I had listed every perceived grievance that I had endured since the day we were married, I was spent emotionally and physically, and wondered how we got here again. “God, how will I ever learn to walk according to 1 Corinthians 13? Why won’t You do something about my husband? This battle of words is overwhelming and confusing.” The next morning I sent everyone off for the day, and took my usual place on the green sofa facing the picture window. I gritted my teeth and read 1 Corinthians 13 in the Amplified Bible again! The words almost jumped off the page, “Love (God’s love in us)… takes no account of the evil done to it [it pays no attention to a suffered wrong].” I did not hold a grudge and was quick to forgive everyone, except my husband. I had kept an account and the list was growing longer almost every day! Lord, forgive me! I choose to let go of the past, and will not rehearse those perceived wrongs any longer. I choose to forgive, pardon and accept my husband as he is. It’s me, O Lord, standing in the need of prayer! (I may have whined: Why is it always me? Again?) My husband wasn’t reading this chapter, I was and it was time to let go and let God!
By the grace of God, I yield to the constant ministry of transformation by the Holy Spirit. I am being transformed into a gracious woman who retains honor, and a virtuous woman who is a crown to my husband. I purpose to walk wisely that I may build my house. Houses and riches are the inheritance of fathers: and a prudent wife is from the Lord. In Christ I have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, according to the riches of His grace which He made to abound toward me in all wisdom and prudence. Holy Spirit, I ask You to help me understand and support my husband in ways that show my support for Christ. *Teach me to function so that I preserve my own personality while responding to his desires. We are one flesh, and I realize that this unity of persons that preserves individuality is a mystery, but that is how it is when we are united to Christ. So I will keep on loving my husband and let the miracle keep happening! Just as my husband gives me what is due me, I seek to be fair to my husband. I share my rights with my husband, in the name of Jesus. Amen.