All Things Became New
Depression was a familiar condition that had been with me from early childhood, and I often wondered why I was even born. On a wintry, dismal day in early January after the birth of our fourth child, I plunged into a surreal state of despair. Remembering the sleeping pills in the medicine cabinet, the thought of consuming them appeared to be the perfect solution for everyone. A taunting voice spoke, “Why are you hesitating? You know your children will be better off without you, and if you are out of the picture your husband can find a fit mother for them.”
A discomforting thought demanded my attention. What would happen if I didn’t die or if someone discovered me too soon? What would my children think?” A desire to live surged up from within me, and I cried, “God, I’ve looked for someone who could erase my pain. If you are real, please help me.”
Suddenly a great light came into my kitchen. Radiant beams focused on the very spot where I sat. The yellow walls vibrated with life; everything looked new! The world outside and inside was bathed in purity. Mesmerized by the unfolding scene, the memories and emotion from countless hurts and disappointments rushed back to me. Then I heard another voice, “Old things have passed away and behold all things have become new.”
Father, I come to you in the name of Jesus, with a heart of thanksgiving. You have turned my darkness into Light. You have become my light and my salvation. Whom shall I fear? Thank you for sending me your light and your faithful care. They will lead me to your holy mountain, to the place where you dwell. In the moment, the twinkling of an eye, you gave me peace that passes understanding, and joy that is unspeakable and full of glory. I no longer dwell on the past. You are doing a new thing! Today I am a new creation in Christ Jesus, my Lord. Old things have passed away and behold all things have become new to the glory of the Father. I offer this in the strong Name of Jesus.
Scripture References: Psalm 18:28; Psalm 27:1; Psalm 43:3
Isaiah 43:18-20; 2 Corinthians 5:17